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I Deleted All My Social Media — Yet I Became More Afraid of Loneliness
I Deleted All My Social Media — Yet I Became More Afraid of Loneliness
The Screen at 3 a.m. Was My Only Mirror
I used to think silence was empty. Then I realized: the blue glow of my laptop at 3 a.m. wasn’t just light—it was the only face that reflected me back. No filters. No hashtags. Just the hum of cooling fans and the weight of my own thoughts.
My Grandmother’s Tea House Taught Me This
In San Francisco, my grandmother brewed oolong tea in silence while watching lanterns during Lunar New Year. She never said “luck”—she said, “Watch your hands when no one is looking.” That’s when I understood: connection isn’t bought with points. It’s felt in the space between breaths.
You Don’t Win by Betting Big
I tried playing the game—scrolling, posting, chasing validation like slots at a carnival table. But winning isn’t about doubling down on likes or chasing rewards with every post. It’s about staying still long enough to hear your own heartbeat.
The Real Prize Is Not Gold—but Presence
The day I deleted everything, I sat for twenty minutes without opening any app. No notifications. No comments. The only thing that came was my shadow on the subway platform—reflected not by others’ eyes, but by my own. That’s when I became more afraid… and more alive.
Join Me in Quiet Victory
If you’ve ever stared too long into a screen wondering if you’re real—comment below: When did you last feel you didn’t belong? Let’s make this our new ritual.
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Aku hapus semua media sosial… eh malah jadi lebih takut sendirian! Bayang-bayang layar laptop jam 3 pagi itu kayak cermin hidup—tanpa filter, tanpa hashtag, cuma nafas ku sendiri yang kedengaran kayak kipas pendingin. Nenekku di Bogor bilang: “Jangan cari validasi di likes—cari keheningan itu lebih berharga.” Sekarang aku main Genshin Impact bukan buat ngejar raritas… tapi biar bisa denger detak jantung sendiri. Kamu pernah merasa lebih hidup pasca-unfollow? Komen dong—kamu juga ngopi sambil ngecek Instagram jam 2 pagi?
Nakalimutan ko lahat ng social media… pero nandito ako sa 3am na screen — yung blue glow ng laptop ko ang tanging salamin na nakikita sa akin! Walang likes, walang comments… puro lang ang himig ng cooling fan at bigat ng te ni Lola sa San Francisco. Alam mo ba? Ang totoo ay hindi kasi manalo… kundi lumaki sa sarili mong paghinga. Sino pa ba ang naka-antay sa iyo? Comment na: ‘Ano bang nagawa mo kahapon?’
ลบโซเชียลแล้วกลับกลัวมากขึ้น? อ๋า… ตอนแรกคิดว่าเงียบจะช่วยได้ แต่พอเปิดโน้ติฟิเคชันหายไป หน้าจอแล็ปท็อปมันสะท้อนหน้าตัวเองแบบไม่มีฟิลเตอร์! เหมือนย่าตายายบอกว่า “ดูมือตัวเองเวลาไม่มีใครดู” — จริงๆ แล้วเราหาความหมายในลมหายใจระหว่างพักกับแฟนเย็นกับแสงตะเกียนจันเดอร์นี้เลย! เห็นไหม? เคยสุดท้ายอยากให้ใครมาไลก์ให้เรา… ก็กินชาต่อไปเถอะ!
Nakalimutan ko lahat ng social media… pero nung biglang laptop ko’y naging mirror ko? 😅 Nandito ako sa subayway sa gabi — walang like, walang comment… puro lang shadow at oolong tea ni Lola. Sinabi niya: ‘Huwag kang maghintay ng validation mula sa strangers.’ Kaya ngayon… kahit wala akong followers? mas takot pa ako sa sarili kong pag-iisip. Sino bang nagtatanong kung bakit ka pa rin nag-screens? Comment mo na: ‘Ano ba talaga ang loneliness na may WiFi?’ 🌙
