When the Whole Server Celebrates, I Cried in the Corner for 37 Minutes

আমি স্পষ্টভাবে remember: screen-টা fireworks-এ by भरপুর। Entire server cheer-এ ‘Fuxiu Feast!‘—কোনও one jackpot hit. Confetti chat-এ rained. But all I could hear was silence inside my skull.

আমি sitting there, alone in my tiny Manhattan apartment, tears slipping down without warning. Not because I lost. Not because I wanted money.

Because no one saw me.

The Illusion of Belonging

Fuxiu Feast isn’t just a game—it’s an experience woven from Chinese New Year traditions: lanterns that glow like ancient prayers, music that hums with ancestral rhythm, and bets that feel like lighting incense at a temple.

But beneath this festive mask lies something deeper: human longing.

In psychology, we call it social presence—the feeling of being seen and acknowledged by others. When your avatar wins a round on Fuxiu Feast, everyone celebrates… except maybe you.

Why?

Because while others are dancing through shared joy, some of us are quietly mapping our inner worlds—tracing patterns in card outcomes not to win money but to feel less alone.